:( A Sad Sad Chinese New Year :(

At 8:27 AM on Friday, February 11, 2005

A bad chinese new year this year.... never felt this way for my entire life..... Quarrel with my deardear.... over what...? really puzzle me.... i also dunno.... i only know that is all about ATTITUDE.... Its worst on the new year eve.... He scolded me in vuglarities... which is what i couldn't stand..... really dun understand why must he use it whenever we quarrel... haiz.... anyway... this year i went over to xiaoqi's place to 'bai nian'... her mum gave me a $20 angbao.... didn't expect it.... hehe... :P i'm now at work.... haiz... so sianz.... felt like continuing to sleep at my bed.... but no choice.... i want to do my job properly.... maybe tomorrow then take MC lor.... really need to replenish my beauty sleep.... now i look like a panda bear....

Yesterday night, we quarrel again... just because i kept quiet.... i dunno why i'm like that... i know he did put in an effort to cheer me up last night... but i just dunno why.... why can't he just hug me and say he is sorry about scolding me.... but all he did was those lame jokes that i could make myself laugh to it... i just didn't have the mood to do so.... so i just answer every question he ask with a short answer like, 'mm..', 'yes' and 'it is'..... i have been wearing this mask for too long... i think i'm tired of this relationship... but i also dunno why i just can't breakoff with him... maybe i find it not worthwhile as i have gave too much and i expect something from him as well.... to add on.... at one point of time... he find me very irritating and unreasonable... which i find it that i couldn't tolerate....

Love,
F@iTh