.... Disappointed... Or Time to Face Reality....?
At 8:27 AM on
Monday, April 18, 2005
Hi Friends... time to update what happened on that Saturday night...? Everyone is curious... mmm.... Saturday night... A night of disppointment...? Sadness...? or a day that make me decide to face the reality....? guess what...? It is a night of embrassement.... i went to kenneth birthday... reach there aroung 7 plus... he was not around as he went to send his friend back to camp... when he is back... i was outside smoking with Joseph... saw him but he did say anything or even smile at me... maybe he did and i didn't see it.... anyway, i was embrassed because of Dekai.... Jierui's friend... i used to send him home after work... i walk past them and dekai was telling him... there your gf is here ma.... what you looking at...? i like.... huh... i just walk away.... wand continue with joseph... hehe... :P Kenneth granny came to me and talk to me.... calling me girl... you look familiar whose daughter are you...? huh? then kenneth's mother came over and told the granny that i'm jierui's girlfriend.... Kenneth's best friend's gf.... huh...? who told the mum this man....? full of embrassement... the granny can still ask me where is my bf....? i'm like... oohh... i also dunno where he went too... haha... :P funny right.... when we are together... everyone take it that we are always together... and when we broke off... no ones know about it.... anyway, i realised that when you bear no hope toward anything... tthe disppointment wouldn't be there.... so this is my attitude towards this relationship... come what may... be it good or bad... its time for me to wake to my sense and face it and not avoiding it anymore....
Dear... i Miss you
PS: To FER>> anyway... i saw BEN there too... i gave me a kinda of face that i owe him something... by the way, i dun owe him anything and he deserve what he did as for me.... i believe that he did something wrong to you... anyway, it up to you... thank for your advice too...
Love,
F@iTh
Faith a.k.a Peisui
